Who am I?

I am a child of God
I am a woman who struggles with what it means to be a woman of God
I have asked God where he was in the midst of my abuse
I have two children. My sweet Caroline and a child I will not get to meet this side of heaven
I have an amazing husband that I sometimes push away because I don't know how to deal with my pain
I have had women in my life who have cried a lot of tears for me
I have a mother that I love so much that when I think about the day she will be gone I can't breathe
I have spent the last three years dealing with anxiety and finally became brave enough to ask for help
I have begun to truly believe that what I do at home as a wife and mother is impacting the world
I am trying to believe that my education was not a waste of time even though I don't get to diagram sentences anymore
I don't like coffee at all but always think people who drink it are more sophisticated than I am
I have a degree in English, but I don't like to read or write
I have new friends that push me to be better and are teaching me more about what it means to love my husband well
I am struggling to lose weight after having a baby, and when I say struggling, I mean that I am not trying very hard
I desire to impact my church family and not just be the wife of the amazing worship leader


I just wanted to share what I have been thinking about lately.

Things Caroline has been doing

Well Caroline is now nine months old. I can hardly believe she is growing so fast. Some of her most recent achievements include crawling everywhere and pulling up on everything. She has even started walking while holding onto furniture. She now has six teeth which she uses quite often to try to take a bite out of me. She is still very social and sweet-natured. I see tiny glimpses of the little girl she will become. Here are some of her more recent pictures. My best friend Amy is an amazing photographer, and she took these amazing pictures of Caroline. I am pretty sure they could win some sort of contest.

This one is my absolute favorite.

This one is for you B. She loves her bloomers.

My little diva!

So angelic

Not Caught Up

I realize it has been so long since I have posted anything, so I thought I would give the blog world a run down of our lives in the last month or so. Caroline is now nine months old, and I will hopefully be posting her latest picture soon. Things here in Austin have been good. Frank and I are getting more involved in our church and meeting some great people which, as some of you know, has been hard for us this last year. Caroline continues to be the joy in our day. She is crawling everywhere and pulling up on everything. She is even starting to walk a little while holding on to furniture. All in all, things have been great for us. God is teaching me so much about what it means to be a worker at home not just a stay at home mom. I am learning what it means to find joy in my job at home, and the Lord has allowed me to see that I play an integral role in my family. Love to everyone. I will be back soon with new pictures.