Who am I?

I am a child of God
I am a woman who struggles with what it means to be a woman of God
I have asked God where he was in the midst of my abuse
I have two children. My sweet Caroline and a child I will not get to meet this side of heaven
I have an amazing husband that I sometimes push away because I don't know how to deal with my pain
I have had women in my life who have cried a lot of tears for me
I have a mother that I love so much that when I think about the day she will be gone I can't breathe
I have spent the last three years dealing with anxiety and finally became brave enough to ask for help
I have begun to truly believe that what I do at home as a wife and mother is impacting the world
I am trying to believe that my education was not a waste of time even though I don't get to diagram sentences anymore
I don't like coffee at all but always think people who drink it are more sophisticated than I am
I have a degree in English, but I don't like to read or write
I have new friends that push me to be better and are teaching me more about what it means to love my husband well
I am struggling to lose weight after having a baby, and when I say struggling, I mean that I am not trying very hard
I desire to impact my church family and not just be the wife of the amazing worship leader


I just wanted to share what I have been thinking about lately.